Have you ever had this feeling where you feel like you’re losing everything? Family, friends, life, reality. I feel like recently I’ve been losing my closest friends. From the extreme closest that I used to tell everything to them to the less extreme close school friends.I feel like I’ve changed and I just want to get out of high school and start my life over away from home in college. I don’t know what it is but with that… my friends are drifting away. Is it me? Is it life? Is it them? I try everything to get them back but no matter what I feel like that best friend connection isn’t there anymore. We never talk and if we do it’s one word answers and no care in the conversation. And with that I feel like I can’t even tell them anything anything and inside I’m blowing up because I want to tell people something. Keeping these kind of things in my mind is emotionally exhausted me and I need them back. I need the friendship, I need someone to be there for me to get my grip back on reality.